maan, maan!
why does it always have to be maan?!!
if it's not maan, it's raizza.
hello.
i know, and kind of sure, that you have no idea that i have feelings for you.
you are just plain insensitive.
and that's ok with me.
'cause if you knew, and didn't care, that would be painful.
and if you knew and insulted me for that, i'll just be broken, again.
being broken once is already painful.
that's enough.
twice is vanity.
maan.
you tell me about how you bonded.
you tell me how sad you are 'cause you may not see us, or rather, them (or her) ever again.
hell, i know it's just them. worst, i know it's just her et al.
you know exactly how many of her friends were with her.
you know her by name and by her face!
it's almost just her!
you don't know ALL of us!
you don't even know me! ouch.
and then there's raizza and cath.
hell, one girl is enough, and then you add two more?!!
they're so lucky, don't you think?
who wore glasses? do you even care?!
and while talking to me, you ask me about who she was with?!
who her companions were?!
you ask me if i know them all?!
heck, i know i said i only look at a few people.
but the truth is, i only look at you.
for the longest time...
you ask me her seatmates.
what do i know?!!!
and then you think you're a bad person just because you can't remember the names of her companions?!
how about when you done me wrong?
did you feel like a bad person?
did you think about my feelings?
did you even care at all??
you ask for our directory.
so you can recall them.
them b*tches of yours.
f*ck, i'm sick of this!
it's already hard for me to get over that thing that you did to me.
and it's twice as hard for me to move on; to get over you.
but how can i?
when it's you i think about.
when you hurt me like this over and over again..
i keep waiting.
i keep on dreaming.
i imagine the impossible, the wish that wasn't supposed to be made in the first place.
to myself:
i'm sorry, i've failed you once again.
you've fallen, and nobody caught you.
one-sided and all..
L,
stop.
stop it now, please.
i know you have no idea of what i'm talking about.
but please, stop while it's not too shattered.
leave a piece for the next one too, if there will be any..
and i cry again.
***
currently listening to sorrow by flyleaf.
sorrow lives and lasts.
you didn't even say goodbye..
Sunday, May 18, 2008
you cut me open.
the worst pain so far.
when you feel the sadness.
the grief.
when it's all too much to for the physical cry.
the heart speaks for the eyes.
a bleeding heart.
it's worse then a teary eye.
worse than hearing the cold words.
the tears could've fallen.
it could've lessen feeling frozen.
knowing the truth.
seeing is worse than hearing.
bleeding is worse than feeling.
***
currently listening to bleeding love by leona lewis.
you inspired me.
the worst pain so far.
when you feel the sadness.
the grief.
when it's all too much to for the physical cry.
the heart speaks for the eyes.
a bleeding heart.
it's worse then a teary eye.
worse than hearing the cold words.
the tears could've fallen.
it could've lessen feeling frozen.
knowing the truth.
seeing is worse than hearing.
bleeding is worse than feeling.
***
currently listening to bleeding love by leona lewis.
you inspired me.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
so, uhm, yeah.
hardships for this schoolyear is so x.x
so there.
it's done.
no more,
"kasi nahihiya ako eh, 'cause i'm only a junior. (blah3x!)"
yeah!
imma senior now!
i could do what i wanna do in school!
i'm the queen!
hahaha. xD
no echos or chuverness could stop me.
nyaha. xD
and yeah.
well my rank?
to hell with that. xD
joke.
well, my standing this schoolyear is very much unimpressive.
and, well, yeah, i know i'm the one to blame.
yet i've matured.
i know my mistakes.
i know what to change.
and, like krizia said,
those PEOPLE should prepare themselves
'cause they still haven't seen the best of US!
hahahahahaha. xD (evil laugh. xD )
well.hmm.
i now know what course to take.
and yeah, i'm so excited and nervous about the whole
UPCAT, chuvaness thing.
plus, i've got to conduct my study soon.
guess i really can't come to korea. *sob*
anyway, i've got to be academically and intellectually active this summer
so, this summer won't be a waste, i promise. =]
good luck to me! =]
*currently listening to: THE BOYS ARE TOO REFINED by THE HUSH SOUND.=] *
hardships for this schoolyear is so x.x
so there.
it's done.
no more,
"kasi nahihiya ako eh, 'cause i'm only a junior. (blah3x!)"
yeah!
imma senior now!
i could do what i wanna do in school!
i'm the queen!
hahaha. xD
no echos or chuverness could stop me.
nyaha. xD
and yeah.
well my rank?
to hell with that. xD
joke.
well, my standing this schoolyear is very much unimpressive.
and, well, yeah, i know i'm the one to blame.
yet i've matured.
i know my mistakes.
i know what to change.
and, like krizia said,
those PEOPLE should prepare themselves
'cause they still haven't seen the best of US!
hahahahahaha. xD (evil laugh. xD )
well.hmm.
i now know what course to take.
and yeah, i'm so excited and nervous about the whole
UPCAT, chuvaness thing.
plus, i've got to conduct my study soon.
guess i really can't come to korea. *sob*
anyway, i've got to be academically and intellectually active this summer
so, this summer won't be a waste, i promise. =]
good luck to me! =]
*currently listening to: THE BOYS ARE TOO REFINED by THE HUSH SOUND.=] *
Friday, March 7, 2008
so. what am i supposed to do? it's almost less than a week before exams and i haven't reviewed a single thing!! plus, all of these requirements are killing me!! but i can do this! yay! for mom! :)
tomorrow is the last day and last chance for me to have at least 8 hours of sleep.
'cause the following week, ack.. hello, 12 o' clock habit. yay!
phew.
time for endless reviews.
'til next week..
this week will be long.
i'm sure.
NOTE to SELF:
Analytic Geom: notes
Chem: notes, proposal
Fil: shooting, notes
MAPEH: none? xD
AP: assignment, notes
Pre-Cal: notes, no given project yet, quiz!, unit
P6: notes
English: notes, scrapbook!!!!
Stat: notes, proposal!
REVIEW ALL SUBJECTS!!!
currently listening to Shiver by Maroon 5.
tomorrow is the last day and last chance for me to have at least 8 hours of sleep.
'cause the following week, ack.. hello, 12 o' clock habit. yay!
phew.
time for endless reviews.
'til next week..
this week will be long.
i'm sure.
NOTE to SELF:
Analytic Geom: notes
Chem: notes, proposal
Fil: shooting, notes
MAPEH: none? xD
AP: assignment, notes
Pre-Cal: notes, no given project yet, quiz!, unit
P6: notes
English: notes, scrapbook!!!!
Stat: notes, proposal!
REVIEW ALL SUBJECTS!!!
currently listening to Shiver by Maroon 5.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
yay. so ayan. i finally made my own blogspot account nako.
padami na ng padami ang mga accounts ko sa net.
prob ko tuloy magremember ng mga passwords and usernames.
hahaha. xD
ok lang yan.
anyway, nagtatawag na ang simbahan so post na lang ako ulet
tomorrow.
thanks nak nicolletz!! xD
padami na ng padami ang mga accounts ko sa net.
prob ko tuloy magremember ng mga passwords and usernames.
hahaha. xD
ok lang yan.
anyway, nagtatawag na ang simbahan so post na lang ako ulet
tomorrow.
thanks nak nicolletz!! xD